I FELT I N V I S I B L E
Ya, indeed I do... (ooh ya, this is going to be a long and boring post about me with invisibility issues, be warn!)
I'm sure some of you people may have felt this way before, but I can assure you that I'm dealing with this shit feels every single day throughout my whole secondary years of schooling. Yup, since the tender age of 13 years old until now, 20 years old.
How I survived till now without the thoughts of taking my own life or whatever shit you can think of, I'm not down to that kind of dumb moves (sorry), I faced reality by having positive thoughts and that I have my family to back me up against the real world, where everyone is a critic.
We live in a world where everyone is the judge judging you and your every moves, and it matters to them, like it bothers them even when you're not even close to them. They just judge!!!
Back to the whole point of being and feeling invisible, its just disappointing to know that the people you know and cared for were the ones who make you feel even more invisible, like you did not exist.
Yes, they knew you were there the whole time, is just that whatever they're talking/discussing about, they does not include you into the conversation, and yet at the same time, make you feel like they're your best friend in the whole wide world.
In reality, you're just another person to add into their book of people they know and made friends with.
I CAN DO THIS!!! :D
Most of the time, well almost everyday every night before I go to bed, I would look at myself in the mirror/reflection to just say whatever is on my mind. Everything ranging from various thoughts of this and that, that happens in school, colleges, peer pressure, friends, dilemmas and almost everything.
"I would just say it all out, just so that I won't eventually blow up in front of anyone and made a fool of myself."
And when I said almost everything, it meant EVERYTHING THAT HAPPENS TO ME on that particular day, and I would talk non-stop until I'm tired and sleepy, then I'll go to bed.
P.S. All I've said is all my own opinion, different people have different situations and different ways of facing it.
Thanks for hearing me out,
ViVien XOXO
P.S.S. YOU CAN DO IT!! <3
